Hopeless?

So hard now to let the words out,
Where we were then and how we are now.
Sound of time so loud and unforgiving
The repeating beats, each different from the last

How can I stop? Stop the time for jus a moment
Enough time to just let myself go
Allow my heart to soften, allow my words to ….flow

Trying to hold on to a hope fading fast
Always on my mind to return, but my heart’s so lost
Blinded by fake bliss, deafened by the constant whispers

My heart hurts with each action,
Each day losing another chance,
I know I want to go right,
But I’m too weak to fight

Can see the time run out, but I can’t find my way out.
Know the route to take, but jus can’t find it.
Want that step but can’t see the way!

Sometimes I feel like I want to quit,
But my hope is my faith
And it keeps me beating
Never too late, to make amends
Why except a fate, which no one knows

Life is a route with many ways,
Hope is all I have.
Without that I’m living dead,
Till my final breath I’d fight
Even if it’s for the dimmest light
As this could lead me to eternal light

Inshallah.